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Assalamu’alaikum w.b.t.  Greeting to all of you. Hope all of you always in good condition, always in Allah blessing. Today posting I will talk about my expression. Hmm, maybe it sounds like selfish right? I’m sorry if it makes you think like that. It not my intention to be selfish, but this is me, I don’t know how to express what my heart want to tell through my mouth. I only know by my writing. Even to my sibling, but my family member know how my feeling by seeing my face expression. Hmm, miss them very much, mmm… miss my mum, it been 3 month I not at home. However, I must not think that I’m alone. You know? We are never alone, we always been watching by Allah. So, don’t feel lonely.

Ok, let’s start my posting. Actually, lately this week I’m been so busy with my lab project on electronic circuit. So, my time is limited for rest. Because of this, I feel that my heart start to arid. Why? By doing lab project for every week, I can’t manage my heart maybe I can say with my own language, I forgot to renovate and service my heart. You know, it feels so much pain in your heart when your heart is empty? When our heart is empty, something else will fill it. I remember there is some quote that I like when I was read a novel I think the novel title is ‘Tautan Hati’. Maybe I can say the quote using my own language, Our heart is like a cup, if we fill it with water then it will give us benefit, if it empty, then air, dust or maybe sand will fill it . Hmm, lots of problem can occur when our heart is dry from `water’. Like a tree, as we can see when there is drought and the soil is dry, try guess what will happen to the tree? Withered, right? Or most dangerous is it die, I’m afraid it would happen to my heart. Try imagining what will happen if our heart is die… It not a good thing when our heart is dying, all things goes wrong and ourselves will start to lost our way.  I think my heart start to saying to myself, “ahmad, have you think that you already far from Allah? ” . Oh my, what am I doing? I busy with my project but forgot that my heart needs Allah. I’m shame of myself.

Alhamdulillah, I’m grateful to Allah, HE still gives me a test. He makes my legs hurt, it been a week I feel pain while walking. But, I as a servant, who am I to complain. For me, it’s a present from Allah, so that I always remember HIM. If today my leg is hurt, HE still gives me chance for me to walk on HIS world. It feels so much peace when our heart is always remembering Allah. Sincerely, it feels like all your burden in your heart just goes away when we always remember Allah. I still remember one of verse from Quran, it give me motivation so that I never feel stress, depressed, and give up. The verse is:

“….and never give up hope of Allah.  Soothing Mercy: truly no one despairs of Allah Soothing Mercy, except those who have no faith." 
( yusuf : 87)

I think that all for now, sorry for my broken English, I’m still a learner. If there is my language that hurt your feeling I’m deeply sorry.  Maybe I can share with you one of my favorite song by Sami Yusuf, but its only lyric. If you want to hear his song maybe you can find it.

Title: make me strong
By: Sami Yusuf

I know I’m waiting
Waiting for something
Something to happen to me
But this waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Nothing in life is free
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud
That on that day I’ll be ok
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
Help me find my way

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch
I know the road is long
Make me strong

I know I’m waiting
Yearning for something
Something known only to me
This waiting comes with
Trials and challenges
Life is one mystery
I wish that somehow
You’d tell me out aloud
That on that day you’ll forgive me
But we’ll never know cause
That’s not the way it works
I beg for your mercy

My Lord show me right from wrong
Give me light make me strong
I know the road is long
Make me strong
Sometimes it just gets too much
I feel that I’ve lost touch
I know the road is long
Make me strong